some stress

hmm i like to think that i am living life as i believe it should be done, but right now, i am kind of confused why i am involved with duu so extensively. in some ways, i'm really excited to be part of this organization bc it allows collaboration of many sorts, a lot of freedom (w/ a budget), and control of space. oh and i'm interested in where duke is going with its arts focus. but in the end, i feel like i'm going to have to put a lot of effort into it that i'm not sure i will have the energy for. i don't know, i don't like the idea of doing something badly. i had lunch with kerry today outside of koninklijk antwerp and she softly but shrewdly reminded me that college is after all a time for being a student.

speaking of koninklijk antwerp, i had my third visit to this museum. i think this museum makes a lot more sense than its counterpart in brussels but that might just because the one in antwerp is substantially smaller. the only thing is that they have a rubens room that is lined with GRAY CARPET. what the heck.

in case you haven't noticed, going to museums always makes me think of how i am going to design my future house. especially today bc we also went to museum van der bergh and we saw the collection of a late 19th century collector, which was really amazing and big. so here are my plans thus far

1. a hallway lined with books
2. resemble as closely as possible guglhupf
3. no unused rooms i.e. dining room, guest bedroom - yes, i see potential problems with this one
4. no ugly furniture

it's a work in progress, as you can see

hmmm since this post is really just an excuse to not start studying, i should really stop